An Over-Thinker I Am

I tend to overthink things sometimes. It may be a good thing at times whilst a bad thing at all other times. It normally causes me to sleep late at night or get lost in my own world for a moment in the day. When I start, it's hard for me to stop. I'll just overthink one topic after another until sometimes I cry my eyes and heart out till I fall asleep. It may be a small matter like where did I misplace my hairband to the consequences of my doings to fussing over my future.

Eventhough I hate overthinking, I can't seem to find a way to make my head stop. Every time I try to make it stop, it'll just worsen. The subject that I'm thinking of becomes more and more random that at one time I even thought of what it'd be like to be an animal. Yes, and animal. I can't remember what animal it was though. Sometimes I think of all the horrible things I've done and wish I could turn back time and take it back.

~ Raising my voice
~ Not finishing my homework
~ Lying
~ Making jokes that turn out rather mean
~ Unconsciously talking behind someone's back


The list goes on..

It may not be a big thing but to me, it is. I'm honestly sorry if I have ever done or said anything to hurt anyone. I have much to improve on.

Every night before I sleep, events of stuff that happened throughout the day would replay through my head automatically and I would think of how it would be if I had done things differently and if I have done something that I shouldn't have, what should I do to repair it. It sucks to not have enough sleep and be a grumpy person the next day but I would prefer overthinking over having a nightmare. Dreams tires me out and drains away all my energy. Overthinking however wastes my time. I guess they're equally bad. I'd like to think that everyone out there is an overthinker, it's just how you control yourself that differs each person from the other.